We are the White Hats.

So I'm on facebook a lot, because I'm 19 and a college student and that is what I do.

Here's a status of a friend of mine.

Khalid Sheikh Mohammed is a TERRORIST. The colossal ignorance of both the Bush and Obama administration never ceases to amaze me; Bush for allowing that bastard and the other 9/11 terrorists to live this long and Obama for treating these sick fuckers as if they're decent human beings who deserve to enjoy the rights that everyone else has. They lost their right to a fair trial when those towers came down.

My problem with this entire thing? That there are individuals who are also citizens of the Unites States of America who think that not everyone ever deserves a fair trial.

Here's my facebook comment to the people who think this:

I think that you're too gung-ho for all this. We NEED to put them on trial - we all know they are guilty, but if we just say that they're in jail because they said they're guilty, we are setting a bad legal precedent. And we're also AMERICA. Our American ideal is that of liberty and justice for all - and a part of that is not being like these dictators who put people in jail or execute them without officially looking into and determining if they're guilty. We would be just as bad as Saddam Hussein or Lenin or Stalin if we do what you are proposing. We have to rise above what these totalitarians are doing and be a democratic nation.

This is a basic and core belief of our Nation. Now that everyone's borders have expanded and we are a global community, when we are prosecuting an individual who is not a part of our nation, to spread our basic tenants of a democratic nation, we need to treat these individuals like they ARE a part of our nation and deserve due process like every other individual who has the privilege to be a citizen of the USA. Because otherwise we're great big fat hypocrites and no one will take us seriously. That is why we can't do torture anymore, that is why Guantanamo bay was a huge atrocity and blemish on our nation and that is why Obama shut it down. That is why we need to "waste" tax payer money on a trial for these men because otherwise we are no better than these men or their leaders. We need to show that the USA can and will stick to our guns and be the standard of humane treatment. We are one nation, indivisible, for Liberty and Justice for all.

That doesn't say "Liberty and Justice for the people who we think deserve it." It doesn't say "Liberty and Justice for people we like." it says "Liberty and Justice for ALL."

FOR EVERYONE.

The constitution what written by a bunch of men who couldn't comprehend a global community. They didn't have to put in stipulations that global terrorists deserve due process as well. They didn't think to say that torture of non citizens is just as heinous as torture of citizens because that was not a problem for them.

We have a very unique set of problems and this is the time to set the right precedent, by saying that even if you're a terrorist that manufactured the deaths of hundreds of people and the injuries of thousands across the coast of a country halfway across the world from you, you too deserve a full and proper trial, because hey, we're the white hats. We're the good guys. We both know you're guilty, but just in case no one else knows, we're going to have this done right and documented properly so that the whole world, and everyone that follows us in history will know. Because that's what we stand for.

I can put in a whole lot of other things about how NOT treating these men as people would set a precedent for the vocal conservative xtian group who would LOVE for me to be executed for being an agnostic/pagan bisexual opinionated woman who doesn't want to be a baby maker and stay in the kitchen cooking pot roast for my proper xtian husband, but that won't get my message across. That's too personal. I CAN, however, remind you what we stand for. I CAN, however, make myself seem more American than you by standing for the same tenants George Washington, Benjamin Franklin and Thomas Jefferson did.

We are the goddamn white hats, this is what we DO. We're the good guy cowboys. We're the sheriff who's coming in on his trusty steed ready to swoop in and serve the black hats some justice in the form of due process and a proper, fair sentence.

Why Twilight is Creepy

Twilight was a huge disapointment for me. I'm an avid fantasy nerd and I was intrigued when it first came out. Vampires? Werewolves? SIGN ME UP!

However, I then learned the authoress was a Mormon. My interest waned. I've got mormonism pretty much on the same shelf as scientology as far as "legitimate religion" goes. As in, they are not. And they both really fuck up their members mentally, so I'm just not for fiscally supporting any scientologist or mormon by buying their work.

But then I kept hearing all this stuff about how romantic it was, or conversely, how creepy it is.

I have since read all of my sister's copies of the books.

Here is my list why Twilight Is Creepy.

1. Edward is a hundred years older than Bella. I don't care if he's stopped aging at 17, he is one hundred years older than a high schooler, and they are romantically engaged. That IS pedophilia in my book.
   
2. Edward is a stalker. He IS. He WATCHED HER SLEEP before they started dating.
3. Bella was not freaked out by this at all. In fact, she encouraged it.
   
4. Not for one instant Bella had a moment of "Oh, yea, he's a predator, and I am prey." She has no survival instinct.
5. Bella has no interests or activities outside of doing housework for her father, or trying to get Edward to kiss her.
   
6. When a boy takes off "for your own good", you are allowed to be mopey for a MONTH. Then you rebound. Bella was mopey for almost a YEAR. This is ridiculous and unacceptable.
7. Bella's baby was killing her, and she didn't want to get rid of it. This is a terrible and ridiculous thing.
8. "Imprinting". Not only did Stephanie Meyer completely CHANGED the word - it's what baby animals do to their mothers to identify them as their mothers. A baby bird who has already imprinted on a parent would die of heartbreak if the mother died or had to leave the baby - she turned it into something COMPLETELY DISGUSTING. She turned the only reasonable character in the book into another PEDOPHILE. He is not being Renesme's "big brother", what he is doing is called grooming. This is a thing pedophiles do to children on the internet to mold them into their little sex dolls. Okay, so we see no EVIDENCE of that kind of grooming, but everyone knows (even Renesme) that one day, Jacob and Baby Cullen are gonna do it. WHAT.
9. The fact that Esme and that other girly cullen and that one female werewolf are completely defined by the fact that they can't have children. YOU ARE VAMPIRES AND WEREWOLVES. YOU ARE DESTROYERS OF WORLDS/MONSTERS. It would of been acceptable for Mrs. Meyers to touch on this here or there, but this, along with abstinence and obsessive love, was a running theme throughout the series. I am insulted in that fact. I'd be SAD, but I would not want it to DEFINE me. I would hope many women would try and move on from this.
10. Making Bella a "forbidden fruit" i.e. a sin. This is disturbing to me. I don't feel like I should explain, just the whole idea of sex and weddings and purity and "protection" blech. It's just wrong.
11. The fact that vampires sparkle. Actually, this was the initial reason why I refused to read the books, after finding out Mrs Meyers is a Mormon. This is just all wrong in my mythos cannon.
    

Gifts to give to college students

I have been a college student for almost a year now, and after finishing up an order to dominos pizza via the internet, I've decided to post a blog on what to give to college students.

1) Gift cards to the bookstore.

We need's em. College text books are super expensive and really difficult to afford even if you've been busting your ass all summer for money to do exactly that.

2) Gift cards to Walmart, SuperFresh, Giant, Target, and any other place that sells groceries.

If your darling dear is moving into apartments instead of kitchen-less dorms, groceries are going to be just another thing they're having a hard time to afford. A giftcard that eases that burden will be welcome to the extreme.

3) Gift cards to Dominos, and other collegiate fast food places.

Do I really have to explain?

Really, just get them gift cards. lots of them. Checks are likely to be taken by parents to be put towards tuition, and Cash is likely to be spent on booze instead of things they need. Gift cards are amazing little bits of wonder that are going to be put to good use for things I've listed above.

Of course, here's some gift cards I personally would love.

A. A Visa giftcard. Visa is accepted anywhere, and I'd love to go online and buy shiny things with no guilt or fear of having money stolen.

B. Hot Topic. I'm a teeny goth at heart and I like the pretty things.

C. Barnes and Nobles/Borders Books. I love to read.

D. Amazon.com giftcard. THERE ARE ALL THE CHEAP SECOND HAND MOVIES AND BOOKS. And half a billion other things as well. A giftcard there would be well received.

E. Shanalogic.com. I like to shop indie. I like to shop online. Shanalogic has some pretty expensive stuff, emphasis on pretty.

F. Dominos.com giftcard. I WANT TO BE AN MVP AND START GETTING COUPONS FOR FREEBIES. :D

This is a very disconnected blog, but it's a good one. All listed are true.

Support plzkthx

So I've been gone forever and a day, I know. But I'm back to say this little thing that I've noticed now that I'm all freaking out over SEVERAL things.

There is not nearly enough support for pregnant teens in the United States. It's beginning to piss me off, because many girls (and some boys) feel ostracized once they spawn before the societal clock deems appropriate. And in some of the so-called intellectual groups in High School, they not only get made fun of for being dumb sluts (or the dude who forgot what a rubber was), but also ridiculed for being spawners, adding children to the already cramped world we live in. As a passing member of this ridiculous clique, I resent these statements.

Just to make this clear, I'm not sure if I'm pregnant. I'm showing some signs and things are actin' all funny-like. Thing is, it's already been close to 3 months since coitus and I've had periods but we all heard about those weird people who have periods but still are incubating little mini-mes. I really need to go take another prego test.

But back to the subject at hand. Since I am faced with the oh-so-lovely predicament I am, I've noticed how society and family planning fails ultimately. They're doing a fine and dandy job at preventing pregnancy, but what about support for girls who slipped through the cracks? I was up (or is that down?) on antihistamines (allergic to the dude's animals, took a lot as prevention) and my virgin strung-out ass didn't realize the fucker took off his condom. And not only could I be pregnant but I may also even have a YI!

Lets just say I don't associate with this individual once I realized what happened. And lost his number. And avoid his friends like the plague.

The thing with teen pregnancy is that the girls who find themselves expecting often have their plates full with other crucial milestones in their life, like getting a liscense, planning their prom outfits, getting ready to graduate and go to college, and all that rot. They are pressured enough as it is, and are probably already getting crap from their so-called "support system" for "fucking up their lives" (translate: getting a 'D' in geometry). Once these same girls realize they are pregnant, who are they supposed to turn to? Their teachers and parents scorn them, their peers poke fun or use them as precautionary tales (or whales, as said by pretty little Ellen Page in Juno).

I'm just freaking out. I don't know what the fuck is going on. I'm looking up anything and everything that could support me as a college aspiring teen mother but I'm fucked because all the shit sites I'm digging up scream ABISTINENCE AND OTHER METHODS OF PREVENTION.

Uhm, Health Experts? What about when Sally and Johnny tried BC but it failed and now Sally is all knocked up, and her daddy kicks her out and her mommy says she did it to ruin mommy's life, and Johnny's mom and dad think Sally is a slut and the baby isn't their good, sweet, kind little Johnny boys?

Who the FUCK is Sally supposed to turn to?

I guess Karma, Luck, and Fate really like me

I find it just fantastic that the day after I get all my thoughts about myself undermined and confused, and my purpose second-guessed, I get e-mailed by a random person asking me for my help.

I imagine that the young boy (shoot he's a couple years older than me) got my email address from either the forum I frequent, or from blogger, as the only other places on the net that display my email address AND talk about my ADHD are friend-locked.

He asked me if he could ask a couple questions about ADHD as he strong suspects he is ADHD and needed some more information. I went into this long ramble about ADHD and what people think cause it, what I think it is, what the symptoms are, medication, how important it is to get the just-right dosage etc.

I ended the multi-paragraph, could-almost-be-a-medical-page email with a "I know this is a lot of information, so email me at [my gmail address] of you have any questions as I check that one more frequently."

Considering I'm going through emotional withdrawl from my main supplier of "Mel Mel wants to feel important and needed" (aka my ex), this was a welcome email and I was happy to help the young man.

Yea, I realize my need to be helpful and inspirational can lead to some really wacky codependant relationships, but I just nipped my first one in the bud and I'm working on not obsessing over him. I did love him, but dispite my need to be helpful and a pillar to him, I knew our relationship wasn't healthy, and so I tried to confront him and make it healthy, but that didn't work out. So I'm quitting him. Because you can be addicted to people.

However, this whole process would be MUCH easier if he'd complain about how much a bitch I was. But he's not. He's telling people I'm still a good person, blah blah blah.

Which is really pissing me off, because I do love him, but both of us are too immature for where our relationship was going. I was a little possessive and jealous, and he just acts like a 12 year old around people. That does not make for a good, serious relationship.

And also, I can't imagine being with a person who hates mushrooms. I love those fungi like my sister loves chocolate. A lot.

(I like my savory foods)

So... I'm quitting him cold turkey. But it's hard, as we have the same friends, a lunch together in school, and hang out at the same teen center. It's like blowing cigarette smoke in the face of someone trying to quit tobbacco.

But I promise myself, my friends and you that I will not go back to him. 'Cause that would be retarded on so many levels and would not do my intelligence justice if I ended up with him forever like I wanted to before the drama blossomed.

I'm not a lesbian dyke hag....

stoopid spammers trying to get me angry.

I just end up thinking they're stoopid.

....
stoopid
....


Seriously, does anyone ever really read this thing!?

Feels like a holiday

You can usually tell when a holiday is coming in my house. There are seasonal paper plates on the kitchen counter, the fridge is full of Coca Cola, various meats, and the freezer as exponentially more desserts that normal.

The sink and counter surrounding has dirty dishes, empty cans, and newpapers around them, and the entire first floor is cast in darkness.

Except the blue glow of the television, of course.

My mother watches tv from when she got up, to whenever she decides that the dishes need to get done, so we can make room for more dirty ones later.

Holidays in my house are basically just days (or weeks, depending on how long me and my sister have off school) where everyone stops working. Homework doesn't get done until thursday (or friday... or saturday...or sunday) night, and everyone mulls around, watching telly, drinking soda, and just lounging around the house.

No one really works. We pretend to, but then, 15 minutes later, we put down the projects and turn the TV back on.

Sometimes we go out, to a fast food place, or the commisary, to pick up a dish we are craving.

No one is really loud. We get slothfully angry. No force is heard in our voices. No rage lasts long.

My home is very sleepy during the holidays.

*yawn*

I'm going to go watch NCIS with a bag of chocolates now, I'll talk to you lot later ;)